| So I'm just chillin back with my good friend Karim smokin blunts...to the face. Very nice.going to see a movie tonight too, I wonder how that's gonna go. I wanna se Invisible it's the only cool thing out right now and I can't go see spiderman cuz I promised Karma. The last movie I saw was GrindHouse and that was AMAZING!!!!!! So I dont' think anything will top that for a while.
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| dear livejournal,
i'll try and write in you more i promise, over 2 years i've neglected you. i'm sorry. things are gonna be different. things have been different.
so i had surgery yesterday, no more "thing on my arm". in celebration i'm most likely going to get a tattoo so now my arms will be symetrical. yay.
i'll write you more tomorrow live journal. i promise!
~Amy | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
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| 1. I like your okcupid name the best, I think :) This is probably because saying "kittie!" makes me feel like a little kid, giggle, and think simultaneously of poon.
2. "Rainy Day Girls" (a.k.a.: "Everybody Must Get Stoned") by Bob Dylan
3. I forget her name, but she played opposite Nick Cage in Bringing Out the Dead.
4. cuddly
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| I do of course. Had to be me. so I stop by Nina's house after class to give her eyeglass case back. We're chill for a few and go upstairs to smoke a joint. We do this and we are talking and shit, then we decide to go downstairs. I guess it rained or soemthing but her roof was wet and i guess my shoe got wet. I stepped out onto the stairs and i slipped fell right back on my side and slide almost to the bottom of the steps. Her neighbor came outside and asked if i needed a doctor. I'm still in pain and i'm sure i'm gonna have a huge gigantic bruise, but hey what else is new? i swear i'm fucking accident prone.
oh yea so by the way i've started college again. yup this time i'm in class everything is paid for and i'm happy. sorry to everyone i haven't spoken to, i've been kinda busy and kinda not around...... a lot has been happening. also i have mad work to catch up on i have to write my speech for tomorrow which i really don't want to give. and i have to read my math chapter. god so much, but still i'm glad at least i'm getting it together. | | comments: 10 comments or Leave a comment |
|  this is the length i want......i would bleach it and dye it blue......or i could perm it *make it curly* and dye the top black and the bottom red. which one should i do?
by the way i feel like asshole i have a bad sore throat....what crap is this? | | comments: 21 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Kenna - siren | | Subject: | hmmm..... | | Time: | 03:22 am |
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| there's just something about those latin men.......mmmmm.....
Siren lyrics
Yeah, woohoo oohoo
I live for my independence
Live for my belief yeah
I live with my intentions
Careful falling for me
I've come to a new conclusion
On the folly in love and youth yeah
I???ve made my decision
Call it policy or truth
When I say
I say young love will only break your heart,
I say nothings going to change me
woohoo oohoo come on yeah woohoo oohoo
Here she comes with hunger; here she comes with desire,
Here she comes to pull me under burning inside
Yeah I???ve come to a new conclusion
In the folly of love and youth,
Yeah I???ve made my decision
Call it policy or truth When I say
Chorus
When will the siren call?
Here she comes--paradise
when will the siren call?
Here she comes here she comes paradise
Chorus
Hell Bent lyrics
Am I the key
of fiction and heartache
and the pain
is of no consequence
when I am hell bent
my walls are
closing in
Controlling me, controlling me,
is losing me, you're losing,
control of me, control of me,
you're losing
Am I awake
the morning star
that brings me here
since everything in me
between pluto and god
all is hell bent
my walls are closing in
I feel the claim
controlling me, controlling me,
is losing me, you're losing,
control of me, control of me,
you're losing, you're losing
control of me, control of me,
you're losing me then ooyeoh
controlling me, controlling me,
yeah, said
naked, broken my world closing
and I can't find myself
or my way out hey
hey
la
ah ah ah
controlling me
controlling me
controlling me
you're losing me
say ooyeoh
ooyeooh
controlling me
oooh yeah
hell bent
my walls are
closing in
Freetime lyrics
I need the free time,
I need to get away...
I need the free time,
To get away from you.
I need some me time,
I need the me time,
I need to run away, run away,
Run away, run away tonight...
Yeah...
Ohh, Ohh, Ohh, Ohh, Ohhhh...
I need the free time,
I need to get away,
I jump in my car,
And ride ride to oblivian.
I need me time,
I need the me time,
I need to run away, run away,
Far away, far away, tonight...
Unlike the sun that shines through a crimson sky,
I have built these walls so you can't get by,
And its alright, tonight, tonight, its alright.
Run run run run to your place till you're gone,
Where do you go to be free?
Run run run run to your place till you're gone,
Where do you go to be free?
Run run run run to your place till you're gone,
Where do you go to be free?
Run run run run to your place till you're gone,
Where do you go to be free?
Yeah...
Ohh, Ohh, Ohh, Ohh, Ohhhh
Unlike the sun that shines through a crimson sky,
I have built these walls so you can't get by,
but its alright, tonight, tonight, its alright.
Tonight,
Tonight,
Its alright,
Its alright,
Tonight,
Tonight,
Its alright,
Tonight,
Tonight,
Tonight,
It's Alright.
kenna is the man by the way
fox~*^_^* | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
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| | oh yea and my nipple ring fell out this morning, WHAT THE SHIT?!!?!?!?! | | comments: Leave a comment |
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| | wat the fuck man? so i'm feeling like shit all day, i go to work and feel like shit sore throat and ear infection. so even at like 7:45 my boss said if you look like shit, and i did, honestly. i asked to go home at 8:30 and he said ok, so i'm cleaning up and i wrapped everything and i cleaned one slicer then i was cleaning the other one, and my manager showed me a "trick" that i could get under and on top of the blade with a rag. so i did this. i guess the rag caught and pulled my finger into it sliced through some meat on the left side of my right index finger. i got it to the sink right away and washed it under water then wrapped it in paper towel i immediatly went to show my boss and he was like are you ok? i said i'd be fine. as i was leaving i dropped my honey that i had in a bag and i said shit, then it dropped again i screamed. what the fuck else is gonna happen? everything just turned to shit this week. and then this had to happen? when i left i burst out crying, i just couldn't hold it in, everything is goign wrong. and i just didn't need this shit. i call my mom and told her i cut myself and she rushed downstairs with paper towels and my grandmother was just getting home * they are both nurses* i'm so lucky. they called 911 so i wouldn't have to wait to see a triage nurse. i got seen and she said wait to hear your name called and go to "fast track" and i waited a while. they called and the guy gave me liticaine. that hurt and stung but it made it nice and num.i watched him stich it up i didn't hurt at all then, it was cool watching him sew skin back on he said it might not take and the skin might not grow back. i hope everything goes ok. that would look really ugly. well its late and i have to work at 7 and work till 8 and NO BREAK! SLAVERY!!! SLAVERY!!!!wat the fuck man? so i'm feeling like shit all day, i go to work and feel like shit sore throat and ear infection. so even at like 7:45 my boss said if you look like shit, and i did, honestly. i asked to go home at 8:30 and he said ok, so i'm cleaning up and i wrapped everything and i cleaned one slicer then i was cleaning the other one, and my manager showed me a "trick" that i could get under and on top of the blade with a rag. so i did this. i guess the rag caught and pulled my finger into it sliced through some meat on the left side of my right index finger. i got it to the sink right away and washed it under water then wrapped it in paper towel i immediatly went to show my boss and he was like are you ok? i said i'd be fine. as i was leaving i dropped my honey that i had in a bag and i said shit, then it dropped again i screamed. what the fuck else is gonna happen? everything just turned to shit this week. and then this had to happen? when i left i burst out crying, i just couldn't hold it in, everything is goign wrong. and i just didn't need this shit. i call my mom and told her i cut myself and she rushed downstairs with paper towels and my grandmother was just getting home * they are both nurses* i'm so lucky. they called 911 so i wouldn't have to wait to see a triage nurse. i got seen and she said wait to hear your name called and go to "fast track" and i waited a while. they called and the guy gave me liticaine. that hurt and stung but it made it nice and num.i watched him stich it up i didn't hurt at all then, it was cool watching him sew skin back on he said it might not take and the skin might not grow back. i hope everything goes ok. that would look really ugly. well its late and i have to work at 7 and work till 8 and NO BREAK! SLAVERY!!! SLAVERY!!!! | | comments: Leave a comment |
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| this is gonna be short i only have on-screen keyboard, sucks man. anyway this promotion shit is a pain in the fuking ass. REALLY. i'm always tired, never ave time to chill i dont where any of my nice clothes in fear i might get them stained with some crap, and i have to wear this stupid yellow hat
i feel like such a dike lol laters peeps i'm tired of clicking this mouse. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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| one question for everyone.
has anyone here been so depressed they wanted to kill themselves? and if so how did you remedy the situation......i'm not expecting anyone to answer back since i haven't posted in so long....but if you could comment it would be super. thanx | | comments: 7 comments or Leave a comment |
| I haven't updated in a while. Sorry. Well I'm no longer seeing Francisco. I'm really sad about it. This is how it went down.
I asked if maybe 2 weeks ago if he wanted to go see a movie with me. I liked his company. He said he would go, and he didn't show up. I was really upset, I didn't know what he was doing. Couldn't get in contact with him. At about 10 to 9PM he calls associated. He talks to Lorena and tells her he couldn't make it today becuase he had to see some person and also that he wasn't going to be working there anymore. My heart sunk. It was great with him working there, a little work romance secret is cool.
The next day when I'm at work and I took some carts out and he was outside. I said am I going to see you agian? He said yea the movies tomorrow night. I said ok. So I bought a really nice outfit to wear, a fushia skirt, and black pink ringer tee that has a sparkly chesire cat. I think I looked cute. So Feebee calls me and asked me to meet her at union and I told her I'm already going on a date there. So she was like ok see you in a bit. I go wait for him, meet up with him, and there was silence. I said "why dont' you talk to me anymore." He was silent for most of the time.
Feebee came and we went to Pronto Pizza, she talked to him a bit. He said he doesn't like to talk to me through a translator, he doesn't really understand when I speak english OR spanish. Everyone else understands my spanish. So he said he can't continue and do this, he doesn't wanna hurt or break my heart. So I felt like crying my eyes out. So we had to go to the movie at this point. I felt like crying the whole time, I had such a fake smile. I was crying cuz I developed feelings for this man, I was going from seeing him everyday to never again. And also he dropped the bomb before we were going to the movies so it was shitty we had to sit next to each other for 2 hours in the dark. And I would feel even worse cuz the movie is in english. *shakes head and looks down* When we went in he could see how sad I was, he said "your a beautiful person, but I can't do this anymore." I said I understand. But he saw a tear so he grabbed my arm and said "I study everyday for you Amy." I was happy about that. The movei we went to see was Spiderman 2 and it was cool cuz of the action and they had a lot of humor in the movie that you didnt' need to understand english for. So that was the last time I saw him, I was supposed to see him again on the next sunday but, my grandmother was home and I just said another day. But I haven't called him after that day. I was really hurt when he droped the bomb the first time, imagine me seeing him more and getting more feelings, i would just be hurting myself and him. It's better to just end it like this. I had a great little experience. And I'm happy I met him.
I think that things between me and Christian are finally ending, but veeeeeeeeeeeery slowly, which is annoying and painful at the same time. I think I'm afraid to have a serious relationship again becuase of Christian. After time how annoyed will i be with them? Or maybe if I find someone normal they won't TRY to get me pissed. I mean dating is totally great right now. I really wanna get out there and do it. I don't know how I'll deal with Chris with a new girl. Seriously I think the best thing for me is to not talk abouther. I know I won't like her. I know I'll feel like shit if I know he treats her better than me. It's really gonna hurt. I always hoped if he saw someone else doing it for me, he would try to be better than them. But he didnt'. He just sat there like a lump on a log.
Another thing I truly hate about him is the lazy factor. What is that man? Get a job! It would be nice if he would take me out on a date. maybe even to make up for july 4 but no nothing. And when he does have money from his job all he does is spend it on video games. I really wouldn't care but, it's like I watch myself do so much for him but I don't see any reciprication.
I have to go to work at 1 what a bummer. Well there is a plus side, Julie isnt' going to be there for a week she's on vacation. She really pissed me off on Friday. I had picked up my check at 11:30 paid my bill and bought a pair of pants and i needed these things and i put a little money aside for something so I had about 10 bux left. I called Julie to see what time I was working today and she said oh do you want to contribute money to a gift to Rosa's baby. I was a little set off guard, cuz it would have been nice if she said something in advance and maybe I could have some say in the gift. She bought her a $70 baby outfit with matching teddy bear. I mean that's nice and all but babies grow outta that stuff in 2 seconds. And for $70 a lot more baby outfits could have been bought. Rosa doesn't make a lot of money, she is only a bagger. It would have been more helpful to her. But she liked it and that's what matters. Doesn't mean I don't wanna kick Julie in the face. well whatever i'm gonna go and clean my room, it needs it. | | comments: 7 comments or Leave a comment |
| I want to pierce, it seems to be a pretty lucrative bussiness. if anyone would let me pierce them for free let me know i need practice....please!!!! I've been pierced so many times.
R.I.P. Rick James......we shall miss you.
nina, eevee is looking for you. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| 
this is my chubby self, i'm proud to show it
this one goes out to you butt_plug
this is just nice makeup i did, turquoise is the shit
well i went to the beach today. i thought shit wasn't gonna work out, i thought it was gonna such a shitty day. but it turned out to be really good. i wake up late, i meet up with jamila, she said she would translate for me, and plus she wanted to go to the beach. so we get the food and we buy this stupid styrafoam *howeveryou spell it* cooler, and the drinks and ice and shit and we were running late. cuz i left my dictionary at home. and needed it and i decided to change my cooler to a real one so i had to clean it out which took time. and that shit was mad heavy even with a handle. but the train got there 5 to 10 and i had to be there at 10 i mean it takes about 15 20 mintues to get to 14th. so we got there at 10:15 and i thought we missed him cuz on friday i was 15 minutes late and he left. so i thought he left again. but he didn't he was late 15 minutes lol. so he carried the cooler what a sweetie pie. we go and take the L and then get of at 8th ave. and get on the A to Far Rockaway. There was this man having a conversation with us too. interesting things have been happening to me lately, on friday when i got my braids done some man gave me half of his delicous wrap. anyway back the the story. it's cool going there we are all still a little quiet but me and feebee were talking and i was thinking of things to say to himsince my spanish is limited. but we get to the beach eat a little then me and him go in the water and so does feebee but then she gets out, i was having mad fun but he was getting crashed by the waves a bit. then we came out, tanned, i went back in and i guess they talked and then me and feebee collected some seashells and talked. she said that me and him weren't going out, he didn't understand my question the other week. and he said he has a little bit of a girlfriend in mexico and i was very disgurraged at that point and a bit upset cuz he lied to me. i asked himTWICE if he had a girlfriend and he said no. so i went back in the water i needed to blow off some steam. and he didn't wanna come back in but he saw i was out there for a while and he came out and i guess he felt bad cuz i was feeling bad or something. i thought that was sweet. he came in even thougth he didn't want to. we chilled a bit, then got out and decided we all wanted to go, so we get our seashells together and we use the shower, and then we changed in public lol he was just dryin off and i caught a glimpse of it, lol i said it a little load i think he heard but he was a little far from me. anyway we go to the sand bar, eat food then feebee goes and gets icecream and i asked him, "tu eres mi novio?" and he said no a little more time, i was like ok. then he takes my hand and says i love you adn i was just all like AWWWWWWWWWW. he is so adorable, he has these beautiful lips, and nice hair and nice shaped eyes and he always smells so good, and i think that love is in the air indeed, but the girlfriend thing has got to go! then we went to the city and walked around a bit and just chilled. and then we left and my day got even better, i went to cop a dime and the guy had me waiting for like a half hour and then i see this guy that i see all the time on dekalb and the only reason i said hey i know you is cuz i recognized him, he started talking to me and some of what he was saying didn't make sense he's one of those ridgewood people who's marbles are not all there or have to many fried brain cells. any way the dealer FINALLY comes and we walk and he said just give me $5 and i was like wow thank you so much, and i said sorry for not calling you in so long but i haven't had money. and he was like it's all good and i was just so happy i have an extra 5 bux. so i had a pretty good damn day i'd have to say i liked the way everything went down basically. | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
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| "Havin' a woman as a friend is like having nineteen dollars in the bank and lookin' at your ATM card." - Alonzo Bodden
it's funny as hell I took it from dan, such a cutie pie | | comments: Leave a comment |
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this is francisco
this is the computer me and chris put together, the one that is in my room now! woo hoo!
i did my braids again!
my boobies in my bikini
my new tat, compliments of francisco
so that is is for now, i'm going to the beach on wednsday for a much needed suntan!
and if dan reads this which i hope he does, i'm sorry i didn't come. yet again i am a broke ass bitch. i didn't have enough onsaturday but i was sure i was supposed to on sunday my mother was going to give me the 5 bux extra to get on the train and then at the last minute she started flipping on me and i couldn't go and it was just fucked and i'm sorry shit went down like that, i hope you had fun with danni. | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | George Micheal - Amazing | | Subject: | i feel annoyed | | Time: | 01:11 pm | | Current Mood: | annoyed |
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| i feel very annoyed right now. my computer is being a dick face and i want to kick it. fuck. i wanted to download the drivers for my camera so i could show you all my perdy tattoo! well, it's just not and i have no idea why. chris is being a fuck nut on the phone, why is it that when people are around him he has to completely ignore me on the phone? whatever.
so yea i got my tattoo yesterday and it looks fucking hot! with green and yellow it's and awesome shamrock, the guy drew a picture from a picture. i thought it would come out fucked but it was nice, unlike the stars on my arm but whatever. Francisco took me, ah such a sweetie. he even paid for it. he's so great, i bought the book for him and for me, i will give it to him today. i bought the oxford spanish dictionary. oh by the way i gave him the letter, with the corrections and the cookies, he like them A LOT, lol i blushed. he read the letter once, then on the train he wanted to read it again and he smiled at me. yummy him i can't wait to post his sexy ass on her too.
i want him to come to my house next week i was thinking of buying a simspons dvd so maybe we could watch it together. i know he likes that show a lot. well after we parted at 14th street i went to nina's, that's when i bought the book. i got oxford starter spanish dictionary. revised edition.
so anyway nina's friend matt and adam came down from road island and i blazed them up and they blazed us up it was awesome, and i think that matt is fucking cute as hell. so we blazed and then adam got sick, and it was kinda downhill from there but anyway i had to go home.
As i was walking home from the train i see a fire truck over by my job and i was like oh shit, then i walk up a little further and there is a little flamming thing of newspapers there was a little tiny flame so i tried to put it out with my foot, and it just got bigger and there was a lot of embers.....so i ran up the block and told them about it and they said thanks and it was the really hot chubbie one that comes in the store like once in a blue moon.
So i went to bed and that was that.
oh and the night before i almost got bagged with jean carlos in the park rollling a blunt, and i wasn't paying attention to anything but the van that was coming, and i knocked my head into a bar as i was leaving the field. ouchies | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
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